Showing posts from July, 2012

Jakey goes to yoga!

Saturday night while tucking my baby into bed he told me he wanted to come to yoga with me the next morning. I'm not gonna heart was singing. The next morning I gave him the option to go with his father or even stay home with his sister. "No, I want to come with you."

We arrive, set up our mats and put on some music. While we wait for students to arrive he shows me how his action figures can do yoga. One is doing downward facing dog and the other tree pose. I'm not gonna lie....I love that he makes his action figures do yoga. (a nice change from the usual shooting each other) I give him the option to take his action figures and go to the back room to play when class starts. "No, I want to do yoga"

He sat attentively while I talked about my bhavana. I'm not gonna lie.... I loved having him there next to me. Watching him move through the practice made me smile.  At one point he caught my eye and says "Mom look, I'm doing it" and …

With great love and respect......

"With great love and respect, I honor my heart, my true teacher"

Have you ever had the experience that what you're experiencing through your senses doesn't match what you're feeling in your gut? That happens to me all the time. It's the reason I have so much self doubt. The other thing that contributes to my self-doubt is that sometimes everyone around me has an opinion that is the polar opposite of mine.

For most of my life I've relied on my senses and the opinion of others to influence how I was feeling and how I would make my decisions. Trusting others more than I trusted my heart. They must know better than me. Maybe I was missing something. That's changed over the last few years.

I'm not sure if it's my meditation practice or if it's just getting older but I no longer feel influenced by other people's opinions. I no longer question my gut feeling. The more I honor and respect the guidance of my own heart the easier it is to trust…

Blessings from the Divine Mother

I've been hesitating writing a new post because I don't want to be a downer. The posts that have been writing themselves in my head have been anything but positive. One started like this: "I've spent the last 5 years working on opening my heart and throat chakra. Learning how to express my feelings was a complete waste of energy and has become a huge source of distress. Expressing my feelings only makes everyone I love mad at me." I have been feeling beat up by the universe.

Clearly, that's not the beginning of an inspirational blog post. Instead, I've been spending my time on the mat. It's the yoga practice where I find inspiration. Inspiration for writing and inspiration for living. I've been praying to the Divine Mother for support. In her infinite Grace she has blessed me with clarity of mind today.

Through her Grace I have been able to step back from my own emotions long enough to notice that everyone is feeling "beat up by the universe…