Showing posts from March, 2012

Confessions of a yoga teacher

Let me begin by saying that I am not only a yoga teacher but also a yoga student. I try to take at least 2 classes a week. I'm also a student in an advanced yoga teacher training program. I spend just as much time in the role of student as I do in the role of teacher.

I understand how much you love your teacher. I love my teachers too. I know how disappointing it is when you daydream all day about getting to your favorite class only to find a substitute teacher. Confession#1: The fact that I'm subbing the class means that I am not getting to practice with my favorite teacher either. Therefore, I am just as disappointed as you so let's just suck it up and make the best of it.  Oh..and there's no need to tell the sub that you prefer the regular teacher. The sub already knows.

We've all been in yoga classes where one student is doing something totally different then everyone else. Even though we're trying to practice pratyhara (turning the senses inward) we can&…

Once upon a time.......

I heard a story once that went something like this:

Once there was a monk who lived in a beautiful, serene ashram. The environment was quiet and peaceful and perfect for meditation. One day the monk found a little kitten and decided he wanted to keep her. He needed to get a cow so that he would have milk to feed the little cat. Then he needed someone to take care of the cow so he brought in a man to tend to the cow. The man got lonely and wanted a wife. The wife wanted a child. The child grew up and wanted a motorcycle. The next thing you know the ashram was anything but quiet and peaceful.

The moral of the story was if want to meditate don't get a cat......

I was reminded of this story today. I made sure not to waste time. I wanted to meditate in the quiet of the early morning before the household began to stir. No such luck.

Of course, the moral of the story is not as simple as not getting a cat.  In my humble opinion it's a metaphor for not following your thoughts.

When …

Durga Ma!

I've been swimming in the energy of the Divine Mother for the last week.  What do you think that energy is like?  What's the first thing you think about when you think of the Mother?  I'm sure it's different for everyone depending on the type of relationship you had with your mother.  If we are to believe what we learn in yoga-land that every experience we are having is the perfect experience for our spiritual evolution that we must believe that even the difficult mother/child relationship is perfect too.

As a mother I can say from personal experience that I wear many hats in this role.  So does our Divine Mother.   The mother provides exactly what is required.  Like it or not, sometimes what is required is not necessarily what we want.  Ultimately, though, we know that everything She does is out of love.  Unconditional Love is the grace of the Divine Mother for sure.

When we think of that unconditional love of the Mother the imagine that comes to mind is a sweet, soft…

Om Namah Shivaya!

"What is it that by knowing all is known?"  That's the question of the day.  The first thought that comes to mind for me is:  The Self.    I'm not talking about the self as in the personality of Mirella.  I'm talking about
the Self as in the essence of me that never changes aka: the Atman.  When we know the Self intimately and understand our relationship to the Divine we understand everything else.  At least that's what the Upanishads tell us.

I was reminded this morning of a sympathy card I read once.  It talked about God as the master weaver.  I was thinking about this in that we have such a limited perspective of things.  Imagine that our lives are but a single thread in a great big tapestry.  Do you think that the single thread that is Mirella or Joe or Jane has any idea what the big picture is or what their part is in the grand scheme of things?  Maybe not, but for sure if one thread is missing from the tapestry it would be noticed. 

Make no mistake t…

Note to self: Learn quickly or be prepared to repeat!!

"I am burning a lot of karma in this lifetime and I'm telling you right now if I don't achieve enlightenment I'm going to be really MAD!!!" Yes, folks...that was the beginning of yet another mental temper tantrum.  Of course, it was all down hill from there!

"Why the hell do I have to deal with so much crap?!"  "I'm trying to be a good person, why doesn't God give me a break?!"  "Are you kidding me? Do I have to go through this lesson again?!"  "What the hell is it about me that seems to attract the most challenging people on the planet into my life?!"  (By this point, I thought the top of my head was going to blow off)

Time to hit the pause button.  Playing the victim, even in my own mind, will not serve me.  Feeling sorry for myself, will not serve me.  Those memories that I re-hash about all the people who did me wrong, they no longer serve me.  This mental drama that's playing only depletes me of vital ene…

Inspiration on a coffee mug!

"Just when the caterpillar thought it was the end of the world he turned into a butterfly"
This quote and a conversation with my teacher last night reminded me that no matter the depth of my despair somehow I am always lifted up.   Somehow when I feel like I'm at the end of my rope, miraculously the rope gets a little longer.  When I've spend my last penny there's always just a few more that seem to appear out of no where.  The message:  We will always have what we need.... Maybe not always what we want but certainly what we need. 
I'm not going to lie.  I didn't always believe this.  Whenever I heard anyone say things like "the Universe always provides" I would cringe.  The cynic in me would  point out all the things that were lacking in my life.  But somehow, whenever I found myself truly needing something, whatever that something is, it appears. 

How does that happen?  Is there really a God watching over us or is it that the things we needed …