Showing posts from November, 2012

Putting down the baggage

This post may fall under the title of  T.M.I. (too much information) but I feel compelled to share it.  An astrologer friend once told me that I should say the things that I feel compelled to say but be prepared that some people won't like it.  I'll apologize now to the people who may be offended by this post. 
To those of you who are hyper sensitive - perhaps you would do best to stop reading now.

I was inspired to write on this topic of abandonment after reading a friend's facebook status.   In her status she asked the question how could a father simply walk away from their child after 38 years.   It's a good question.  My father also walked away from his family when I was about 9 years old.   Looking back now as an adult I can recognize that his alcoholism was the disease that took my father away but as a child you don't understand that.  As a child all you know is that one day your dad walks out the door and everything changes.   Perhaps it's a bit easier …

A heaping helping of gratitude!

About 100 years ago, Oprah had a woman on her show who's name I can't remember. The theme of the show was gratitude. During the course of the program, it was suggested that we all keep a gratitude journal. The idea intrigued me so for a long time I kept a gratitude journal.

The exercise was simple. Every night before you go to bed you write down 5 things you are grateful for that day. The benefits of the exercise were two fold. The first is obvious, it's good to recognize the blessings in your life. The second was the added benefit of falling asleep with those blessings on your mind.

The first few nights of this practice were fairly easy. I was grateful for my healthy children, I was grateful to have a job, I was grateful that I had a roof over my head and food on the table, etc.... after that it got a bit harder. Some days I was simply grateful the day was over.

I wasn't about to give up on the gratitude challenge that easily. I was bound and determined to find som…

A letter to God

I've written and deleted this letter to God about 100 times.  I keep deleting it because it sounds so desperate.  I find myself asking God..... why?  Why do people have to suffer?  Why is there so much turmoil and despair?  I beg.....Merciful God!  Give us a break!  Please God! I think the switch is broken because it feels like the world is spinning out of control!!  I start to think that maybe the Mayans were right.  Maybe 12/21/12 is the end of the world.  Today I was sitting at my desk thinking that if the world is going to end next month I don't want to spend my last days pushing papers behind a desk.

Do you see why I had to delete the 100 previous posts?

Okay.... Let me start again. 

Dear God,

I know that even though it feels like the world is spinning out of control it really isn't it.  I know that you have everything under control.  I know that even though it feels like everything is coming to an end that you are only creating space for something different.   I kno…

Being human is messy.

Being human is messy. It's not all lollipops and gum drops. Sometimes we experience the natural human emotions of anger, sadness, frustration. Does that make us any less a yogi? Does being a yogi mean we need to be devoid of emotions? Or only devoid of any emotion other than love and bliss?

I'm knee deep in my Ayurveda studies. I've learned that suppressing your emotions effects your physical body. Suppressed anger damages the liver. We certainly don't want to damage our liver yet expressing anger in yoga-land is not acceptable (at least that has been my perception)

My friend Jon posted a quote on our message board that read "Let go or be dragged".

The initial thought upon reading this quote was that I need to have it tattooed on my arm. Let's explore how we can apply this simple idea to the messy business of being human.

Some people avoid feelings at all cost. When emotions become uncomfortable some run away. Some use drugs or alcohol or even food to…