Yoga with Mirella Nicholson

Yoga with Mirella Nicholson

Saturday, December 27, 2014

Love is the product


Love is the product
It isn't something to buy
It can't be forced
It can't be demanded
Love is the product 
Love is the result
of doing the hard work

What's the hard work? 
digesting our experiences
Both good and bad
Each experience of our life is the work
We integrate what we need to grow and 
release what does not serve
 and
Love...is the product

We can't skip over the work and pretend
it's love. 
We aren't flawed if we feel anger,
fear, shame, guilt.... these are valuable emotions
that we can't run away from
Digest these too
learn the lesson being offered by each emotion
and then release them

Love is the product
It's the result
Love is what comes when we learn to digest ALL 
human experiences, the light and the darkness

Love is the product
it's not all cotton candy, fairies and unicorns
Love is result of facing fear head on 
Love is the result of fighting the righteous fight
Facing the darkness is sometimes required

Meditation/yoga/prayer/self-inquiry 
these are the practices by which our experiences are digested
Love is the product 

Don't despair if you aren't feeling Love....
Focus on doing the work and remember
Love is the product

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Finding my way home

I've been trying and trying to post for weeks.  Something always prevented me.  Interestingly, I have a recurring dream in which I'm trying and trying to get home but something is always preventing me.
In the dream it's weird stuff like the sidewalk moves, the solid ground beneath my feet turns to quicksand. Doors won't open.  In real life, the things that have been preventing me have been equally weird, 

One of those weird things is having difficulty finding words to adequately express what I want to express.  In my dream I keep trying to get back home, no matter what the obstacle, no matter how exhausted I am.  I'm going to take that as a lesson that even though I'm having difficulty finding words I will  keep trying.  So.... Here goes.

You see my life has been turned upside down over the past year.  The difficulties, obstacles,  challenges, whatever you want to call them, are  being thrown at me faster and with more force than ever before.  There isn't even time to catch my breath before the next one comes.  That's not the strange part, that's just life sometimes. 

The strange part is that with each chaotic, traumatic event, I have noticed a small part of me that isn't freaking out.  This small part of me is witnessing the events of my life in a state of awe.  The witness can look at each trauma and see the beauty in the destruction.  The witness isn't wearing the glasses of past experience nor the glasses of emotions.  From the view point of the witness, vision is crystal clear.  

Each challenge is an opportunity to change and grow.  Every destructive experience offers an opportunity to rebuild something stronger and more durable.  Each storm offers a clearing away of things that have served their purpose which allows the space needed for new growth.  

I'm not suggesting that trauma and destruction do not come with a significant amount of pain.  I'd be lying if I told you that my heart hasn't felt the searing pain of trauma.  I'd be lying if I told you that my ego hasn't been gripped by fear at the destruction.  What I'm telling you is that there is a small part of me that is in a state of calm awareness.  A part of me that is beyond my heart and beyond my ego. This part of me is in awe.  In awe of the beauty  that lies beyond the trauma and destruction.  In awe of the beauty that is infinite possibilities.  

At this point in my evolutionary process I have only gotten glimpses of this small part of me that is the witness.  The glimpses are enough to reassure me of the existence of the witness.  The glimpses are enough to reassure me that the experiences of my life, no matter how painful, serve some higher purpose than what the heart and ego can understand.   The glimpses are enough to encourage me to keep trying and trying to get back home.  Back home to my true nature.  Which I have come to understand is that small, calm place within my Self where I can witness the events of my life from a state of awe.  

I trust in the Divine Will.  Regardless of how weird the circumstance of my life are and how difficult it is to catch my breath sometimes, I will keep trying to get back home. 

Om Namaha Shivaya!