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What to do if you make a wrong turn

I've been wasting lots of time sitting in front of the tv lately. I know it's a waste of time but I can't help myself. I'm not sure what came first, the inertia or the depression.

I've been super busy the last 6 months so when this inertia began I told myself that it was because I was completely exhausted. That's how I justify it.

Is the inertia the reason for the depression or is the depression the reason for the inertia? Does it even matter which came first? There are so many reasons for which I feel the depression is justified but in reality there are just as many reasons to feel gratitude and joy. Why is it that I tend towards depression rather than joy?

Since my most favorite teacher seems to have abandoned the Tuesday evening class I usually take (just one of the many reasons I justify the depression) and I had already watched 4 episodes of The Big Bang Theory, I decided to do a little yoga research.

The subject of this little research project is myse…

Not my will but thy will be done......

There I was, sitting in the circle at the morning retreat, minding my own business when  all of a sudden I get a telegram from God!!  That's right.... I direct message!  No crazy yoga riddles for me to figure out.  No  suggestions... A direct order.   "Let go of the need to be heard!"  "Let go of the need for validation!".

What?  Are you kidding me?  Hasn't the message all along been about finding my voice?  Learning to step into my own power and be more assertive about what I need?  But the confusion only lasted a split second.   Who am I to question the wisdom of the Divine?

Okay, Lord..... I surrender.....I am letting  go of my need to be heard.  I am letting go of my need for validation. 

As we practiced kapalabhati this morning I was thinking about how much it resembles all of life.  kapalabhati focuses on the exhale while the inhale happens naturally.  The exhale is forceful while the inhale is passive.

"It is in giving that we receive".…

Observations from an open heart....

Yesterday was all about inspiration. Today.....observation, without judgements.....simply observations.


After each round of kapalabhati, rapid, diaphragmatic breathing, we generally retain the inhale but today we were emphasizing the exhale in an effort to pacify pitta so we were instructed to retain the exhale.

Observation #1: I am really comfortable with retaining the inhale. I can hold me breath until the cows come home but ask me to hold the exhale and panic sets in. Is it because I have more practice with retention of the in breath or is it my resistance to letting go?

Observation #2: The theme today was the heart chakra so we did a lot of back-bends. I love, love, love back-bends. I like the energizing effect. I like that they make me feel powerful and strong. When we counter posed with forward folds I was again, experiencing resistance to letting go.

Observation #3: Meditation is effortless after a great yoga practice. Soaking in the incredibly powerful vibrations in yoga-l…

What I did on my summer vacation.......

I'm on vacation from work this week.  So why the heck am I getting up at 4am you might ask.  Well, because it's a yoga vacation.  That's right, some people spend their vacation in Disney-land and I spend it in
yoga-land.  I don't think there's anything else in the world that would get my kapha-butt out of bed before the crack of dawn except Shiva Das' morning retreat week.   The morning retreat week always inspires me.

It's only the second day of the retreat and I'm already inspired.....

The second day focuses on the Manipura chakra, our power center.  We worked on stoking our inner fire, connecting with our power.  I love this day of the retreat.  It leaves me feeling empowered. Because we are at the beginning of  pitta season (summer) and to honor the full moon that greeted us this morning, SD balanced the solar energy of the manipura chakra postures with some cooling lunar postures. 

It was this beautiful balance of the solar, masculine energy and …