Am I fighting a losing battle trying to teach "real" yoga? That was my first thought when my friend Jon emailed me an advertisement for a new computer called The Yoga computer. That really was my first thought! I was so frustrated that once again, someone was using yoga to sell stuff that had nothing to do
with yoga. I even emailed my teacher to ask him, "are we fighting a losing battle trying to teach "real" yoga?" HA HA HA!!
At lunch today I went to Barnes and Noble to look around for nothing in particular. Of course I ended up in the Eastern Religion section. One book jumped out at me but I put it back on the shelf. I wanted something deeper. After all, I am a yoga teacher aren't I? I can't waste my time reading fluffy books. I need to learn as much as I can so that I can TEACH!! HA HA HA!! Yes folks, I was actually thinking these thoughts today.
Long story short, the book practically jumped off the shelf and before I knew it I was reading "The Guru Question, the perils and rewards of choosing a spiritual teacher" by Mariana Caplan, PhD.
I've only read about 25 pages and already I got the message I was meant to get. She starts the book by talking about the different types of spiritual teachers and she tells a funny story about how a friend of hers was upset because he had declared himself a spiritual teacher and he couldn't figure out how to attract students. He thought that others just didn't get him now that he was enlightened. I laughed when I read this thinking.... What a creep....of course no students wanted him as a teacher.... Anyone who has to declare himself an enlightened spiritual teacher obviously isn't...Right?? Doesn't everyone agree on that?
Now, I have never proclaimed myself to be enlightened but I have to admit that my ego does play tricks on me sometimes. Like today, I was feeling that self-righteous attitude. Of course I'm a way better yoga teacher than those guys because I feel like I teach authentic yoga and not that cheesy exercise yoga. I'm not using yoga to sell a bunch of junk that no-one needs. I teach the benefits of meditation and the "inner yoga" practices. Doesn't that make me a better teacher?
OH, HOLY HELL!!! My ego needed a smack today!!! It's sort of shocking how easily my ego, if left unchecked, gets inflated. Okay, God..... I got the message. I still have a long way to go!!
Om Shanti Om......