I've had these seemingly random thoughts swirling around in my head. I couldn't make sense of them. Something was missing that would link these thoughts. I have tried writing. Sometimes the act of putting the words into sentences helps me make sense of the thoughts. This time the missing link continued to elude me.
I seriously do my best thinking in the shower. As I was shampooing the missing link become clear.
The missing link:
I recently told a friend that I felt like it's time to stand naked in the middle of my life. The emotions that this thought brought up is fear, shame, and mostly vulnerability. What I didn't expect at first is the exhilarating feeling of liberation and freedom that may result from this act of "standing naked in the middle of my life". (Disclaimer: don't worry children, you will not come home to find your mother on the front lawn naked chanting to the moon)
I realized that my fascination with the TV show "My strange addiction" is rooted in this idea of bringing those parts of ourselves that we keep hidden in the deepest, darkest parts of ourselves out into the light. Once we allow our souls to be bathed in light we can begin the process of self-acceptance.
At first, I watched the people on "My Strange Addiction" and "My big fat fabulous life" thinking that the missing link was courage. I was wrong. First comes vulnerability, then comes self-acceptance. We accept our vulnerability. THEN...comes having the courage to "stand naked in the middle of your life". The result.... Liberation and Freedom.
When we stop hiding who we are we free up so much energy. We can put this energy into living our life fully and completely.
Struggling with weight my entire adult life I know all about the energy it takes to hide. I'm always trying to blend into the background. Never wanting to draw attention to myself. I'm always pulling my clothes down, always covering up. It's exhausting. So often hiding has held me back from having fun and enjoying my life.
Standing naked in the middle of your life is scary as hell, no doubt. But once the initial shock has passed imagine the freedom you'll feel. You don't have to worry about your shirt riding up in your yoga class and exposing your fluffy belly. You can focus on the bliss of that deep back-bend!!
So.. to recap... Here's the recipe for living your best life:
1. acknowledge your vulnerability
2. practice self-acceptance
3. have the courage to bring your deepest, darkest parts of yourself to the surface
Then - Stand naked in the middle of your life secure in the knowledge that the Grace of God is bathing you in love and light. This is the liberation we all seek. (in my humble opinion)